Melancholy

As things are changing and my undergraduate degree is coming to a close, there is a lot to be excited for. I am GRADUATING. I am going to GRADUATE SCHOOL. I got into the most amazing program in the world, the only program I wanted to go to and the only program I even applied for. I did it. I have successfully completely my first degree and successfully applied to graduate school. I have a lot to be happy for. So I ask myself, why am I not happy? 

Instead, I'm melancholy. Sad that one chapter is closing. In many ways, my childhood is really behind me now. I'm really an adult. Sad to be leaving some friends behind. Sad to know that many people in my present won't make it to my future because of the transformation that is going to take place. But excited for this new journey. Pensive about what the future holds. Pensive, thinking, pensive, thinking, pensive, thinking, pensive, thinking. 

Pensive...

Thinking...