That one place.

Sometimes there is that one place. That one place where you go and you always feel home. Your heart feels at ease. Your mind is at rest; it is peaceful. Sometimes you find that place is your nonna's house, or maybe it's your front porch. Maybe your place is a place that doesn't exist on this plane. Maybe it exists elsewhere. It could be a beautiful mountain top, or a warm, grassy meadow. Wherever it may be, share it and be thankful for it. When you close your eyes, what do you see?

All you need.

You have everything you need to be you. You ARE a being of light.You are capable of being anything you want to be. You are so incredible. You are so beautiful. You are so loved.

What if an afterlife doesn't exist?

A response to my psychology professor's question," Regardless of your convictions regarding an afterlife, imagine that the life we have now is indeed all we, as individuals, will have. What implications would that have for how you live your life?




If our minds cease to exist when we die, then yes, I would say that it would make many implications for this waking life that I am living. All of the decisions I am making in my life now, all revolve around leaving an impression for the future. I really want to improve and better the quality of life that we are living today. Right now, I am working towards my Bachelor's in Psychology. After my undergraduate work, I will attend graduate school. This is to further my long-term goal of creating and opening a total wellness center here in Nevada. Total wellness encompasses physical, mental and emotional well-being. I feel if I can achieve all of my goals before I die, then I will have attained my version of success, or if I can better the quality of life in some way, then I will have attained success. I think the main implication for the idea if we die our minds die with us, is if I don't achieve anything, or if I don't leave an impression in some way, shape or form then all of my efforts for today have been wasted. Rather, my thoughts and ideas, if not put into action would have been a waste and my life would be made useless by merely thinking and not doing.

Namaste.

I just finished teaching my baby sister (who is not really a baby anymore, but 9 years old) my first and her first yoga lesson. I will say, it was quite the success. I feel completely rejuvenated, both as a person and as a spiritual being. I feel at peace with myself and with life. Everything will work out the way it needs to be. Life is truly wonderful. I am blessed and surrounded with wonderful people. I love you all. Namaste.

When the going gets tough, the tough get going...

Face your fears head on. Don't run away from them. Don't allow yourself to slip into bad habits. Don't lie to  the ones you love. But most importantly don't lie to yourself. Stay true and honest with yourself. Have faith that you will pull through. Give yourself the benefit of the doubt. Stay positive and don't set yourself up for disaster. Be conscious. Aware. Alive. Know yourself and know the decisions you are making. Choose them carefully. When you need help, ask for it. You have people who love you. They would be more than happy to help you. Be humble and don't take yourself too seriously. Don't have pride, but take pride in what you do. But most importantly, love. Everyone and everything around you. Trust means respect and respect means love. So essentially, they are all the same thing bound into one. Just like this world. The sum of its parts make the whole. Remember you have a divine purpose, but so does the person next to you. They are just as important. Treat everyone as such. 

What is means to have faith.

These divine beings that govern us. God, angels, even yourself. They have a very interesting way of allowing things to come together for you right when you need them the most. Always trust and you will be granted everything you have ever wished. I am so absolutely thankful and blessed for what they have given me.  Thank you, God. Thank you, Universe and all heavenly beings that have watched over me. This day has been so incredibly great. 


Love always and forever,
Vanessa

Self-preservation.

What I find so peculiar is that as human beings, we are told, that it is in our nature to love. When really, we spend so much time living in fear. Even when we have absolutely no experience with romantic relationships, we are afraid of rejection. We fear solitude. But as a friend recently brought up, we desire belonging more than true love. We are gravely concerned with self-preservation. But for what? and why? What are we preserving? If we never take risks, then ultimately we will die alone. So again I question, what is the point? Why do we not love more? And why do we not love openly?

Maybe Maslow had it all right.

mosaic.

What could this possibly be?
A million little pieces on the ground.
Shattered, broken.
So many different pieces.
Blue and green.
Orange and red
Each a symbol of life,
each a sum of its parts.
Beautiful, deranged
breathtaking, ugly.
Each following a pattern,
but really no pattern at all.

Love yourself.

Why do we as human beings continuously hurt one another? Why is nothing ever good enough? Why do we critique things over and over again? Instead of taking the things that have hurt us, we project. We project them onto someone or something else. We know what this feels like, why would we ever want someone else to feel this way? Why do we do this? 


Human beings need to realize and believe they are spiritual beings having a human experience.Not, that we are human beings having a spiritual experience. First and foremost, we are spiritual beings. We need love. We need guidance, patience and virtue. We cannot take these things for granted. For the things we take for granted are the things we need the most, the things we need to fulfill our emotional and spiritual beings. Human beings just need food, water and shelter to survive. Plain. and. simple. So, I believe it is fair to say that most of the time we spend here on Earth, is spent not in human, physical form, but the importance lies within the spiritual realm. Delve into yourself. Ask yourself how much time do you waste complaining about useless things? How much time do you spend pondering things of the past? Or the future? Things that don't really matter. Ask yourself, why am I not living right now? And you will find that this is because you are purely giving in to your human being. What is more gratifying is giving in to your spiritual being. It is worthwhile and will save you time and emotion in the long run. ALLOW yourself to live and be free. Don't follow how everyone else lives their life. Be you. Live for you. This is your life for a reason. Love yourself enough to give yourself that. Love yourself.

When shit hits the fan...

When all else fails, when shit hits the fan, when you feel you are at an absolute low...Go back to the drawing board because it is there that you probably forgot your pencil.

you.

You. are someone I could not, or will never forget.
You are beautiful in every way possible.
Your smile.
The timber of Your voice.
Those incredible eyes. We exchange a glance. 
Just the way you look at me. Knowing.
The way you make me feel. Beautiful, transcendant, awakened, alive.
You make me colorful.
I love the way you hold my hand. Interlaced, you give me strength. 
So close. Your breath is the mist of the sea; revitalizing, clarifying.
Breathe out, I want to breathe you in. 


amore.

Words.

Never underestimate or overestimate the power of your words. Choose your words wisely and carefully. They are a direct representation of your inner being. Observe how your words affect others around you. Be mindful. You will start to learn who you are. Precisely. Don't allow yourself to "slip up." Say what you mean and mean what you say. Simplicity is best. And when you have to say something that is not so nice, debate  with yourself if it is worth saying. You will most likely find that you will choose the latter; not saying anything at all. You won't be displeased with your decision. :D

Motivations.

Do not allow your personal motivations to get in the way of giving true advice. 

Tunnel vision.

Sometimes you have to focus on yourself and yourself only. It's the only thing that will actually make you sane. Everything else will follow. Everything else will fall into place.

s.m.i.l.e.s.

You are m e and I am y o u.

Oneness. Eternal thought.

S u n and m o o n.

Yin and yang.

Part, yet whole. 

Reflection of my eyes in yours; green and the blue. T h e w o r l d .

To love myself, is to love you too. 

Beauty.

Divinity.

F o r e v e r i n t e r t w i n e d.

What it takes..acknowledge.

Sometimes it takes the right combination of people to walk in and out of your life to help you realize the important things. I have my own personal treasure box with a few names in there that I can say I call my angels. But, I've also been there with the people who don't bring out the true you, the best you. And that's okay too.

 But, never forget you are an individual. God didn't make two of you for a reason; twins are even different.One thing I think I have let myself down with, is allowing others to take the reigns. That's never okay. You drive your car. Make your own decisions. But, most importantly, never let anyone tell you something about yourself you don't believe in. Stand up for yourself. Use the gifts you've been given and don't allow people to tell you otherwise. Happiness is doing what you love. But, hey, life is all about figuring out the right amount of sugar and spice. It's been quite a long journey all ready and I'm only 21. But, I can say that finding myself has been the hardest for the last three years and I think I'm finally closing that gap. I think I can finally start to say it's fulfilling. Looking back, I wouldn't change a thing. I wouldn't change the arguments, tears, sweats, happiness, rejoices and triumphs. Every last bit has been worth it. 

This special year 2012 has a lot of us thinking. And I mean real thinking. Long and deeply about what it IS we really are. What we are really here for. The cosmos always have something in store for us, but we never really know the motive. Or do we? Or is it that we don't really need to know? What is knowing anyway? These are all questions I've encountered myself this year. The big one is WHO am I? Well, I've been aiming to answer this my whole life. Still haven't quite captured it. And I'm sure you haven't either. But, the real beauty is being able to sit in that discomfort and understand that it will come, with time and wisdom. With all the right and wrong people and experiences we encounter. I don't really know who reads this, or if I'm the only one that reads this, but either is perfectly fine with me. :D

Today, I had this moment of real, raw feeling. A true feeling of interconnectedness. We are all on the same planet. We are all on the same, yet different life paths. I feel that we really need to get to know this idea because we are still so divided. So wrapped up in our own little worlds, we don't stop enough to see the bigger picture. Ask yourself exactly what that is, or what that means. Acknowledge the coincidences.  They won't just be "coincidences" anymore. A great book to read about coincidences is "The Celestine Prophecy" by James Redfield. Life changer. Lets work together on helping one another out. Make it a point to make someone smile. Everyday. Do something for someone else. A lot of times you'll find yourself, your true being in the little moments in life. 

Love. This illogical thing. I can't talk about it enough. Forget about the small stuff; don't sweat it. We don't tell one another we love eachother enough. Tell someone. And mean it. Use your intuition to guide you. We spend too much time listening to other people. Listen to you. You have your answers. It is YOUR life of course. If you feel inclined to go somewhere, see someone..GO. do. IT.

 Don't you think there's a divine reason your instincts are telling you that?

 

Purpose.

An old friend of mine told me the advice I gave him saved his life. He was suicidal and I saved him. That news is astonishing and so absolutely gratifying. If I died tomorrow, I would know I fulfilled my purpose. Thank you God. The Universe. All things good and wonderful. 

Recognize your blessings. Forget your misfortunes.

In the midst of all your misfortunes, take a step back and recognize your blessings. Your pets, the people around you. The food in your refrigerator, your books. All the knowledge you have. The love in your heart. The love in everyone else's heart. Look at the sky and the sun. The moon and the stars. Look at the trees and the flowers. Breathe in the oxygen the world has to give you and breathe out. Look at you. You are beautiful. You are everything you have ever dreamed of. Now stop and take a look around you. How do your misfortunes compare? They can't. Because you are energy. You are light. You are radiant and most importantly you are love.

Goodnight world, goodnight sun, goodnight moon.